Purely Gibberish

even if these tears rolling..you wouldn't come back. Would you?

I was not trying to create any misunderstanding when I wrote this.

I just miss those moments when we argued over a mole on your upper lip - the one that you wholeheartedly believed had made you one step closer to looking like Dean Cain.

I know you hate Korean/Japanese dramas..but I'll tell you this anyway. Bogoshipo..

Bogoshipda Lyrics (Stairway to Heaven OST)
Singer: Kim Bom Su / Romanization by Kreah

amuri kidar-yodo nan mot ka
pabo-chorom ulgo in-nun noye gyote
sangchorom chu-nun narul wae morugo
kida-rini tto-nakaran malya
bogo-shipda bogo-shipda
iron nae-ga miwochil man-kum
ulgo shipda nae-ge murup kkulh-ko
modu optdo-ni-ri twel su it-damyon

michil dut sarang-haet-don kiyogi
chu-ok-duri norul chatgo it-ji-man
to isang sara-ngiran pyon-myonge
norul kadul su opso
iromyo-nan dwe-jiman
chugul mankum bogo-shipda

bogo-shipda bogo-shipda
iron nae-ga miwochil mankum
midko shipda orun kirirago
norul wi-hyae tto nayaman handago

michil dut sarang-haet-don kiyogi
chu-ok-duri norul chatgo it-jiman
to isang sara-ngiran pyon-myonge
norul kadul su opso
iromyo-nan dwe-jiman
chugul mankum bogo-shipda
chugul mankum it-ko-shipda

credit:

http://kreah-craze.com/list-of-korean-romanized-lyrics/

Labels: friendship

Neighbour

I've got to be honest, I was not entirely in cloud-9 when the crowds said they're planning to move in next door.

OMG...I've had terrible headaches just thinking about attire restrictions and god knows what other restrictions on some crazy things I always do in the backyard (e.g. cat chasing, bird feeding, long-jumping, bad singing..sigh..). No, I was not sincerely smiling when they said the landlady agreed on them moving in. Farah-not-happy.

Actually it wasn't as bad as I've had imagined(so far). Since it's raining all the time + everyday anyway, backyard and attire restriction is out of the question. Besides, I've no one else in the house at this moment and the prospect of having people I could trust and run to whenever trouble come knocking on the door..well, it's does make a little different on how things look to me now. Not that I'm expecting trouble to come rolling in..and I've stayed alone in the house by myself LOADS of times before with no trouble whatsoever; but having crowd of people I know as neighbours makes this house feels.....a lot warmer.

Labels: friendship, life

Mari Belajar Bahasa German

Nowadays I'm so busy hanging out with the German students. At one point, I was thinking - every year (without failing) I've been spending my holidays in Germany..finally I got to know some German people - in Galway. Buat penat aje ulang alik Germany selama ni. LoL.

Anyway, this friday we'll be having a 'cooking night' proposed by my partner in crime dalam team neurology - cik Katharina. Setelah penat mencari resipi - I had decided to make "Satay Goreng". Harap menjadi. Batch percubaan sedang diperap dalam peti ais. Esok harus saye berbuka satay. Weeee~

Oh, and I went to Aran Island again!! (ni dah empat/lima kali kot, I've lost count). It was me and the other 4 German students. Eventhough I've known the place like the back of my hand, I still love Aran Island. The rain shower we had that day was just marvelous; when the rain stops everything looked gorgeously dreamy-like(so hard to describe). One more adventurous moment we had besides cycling uphill sampai cabut kaki was when I became really hypo and nearly collapse. In less than one second, help came in a form of white chocolates. Read between the lines.Thank you Elena!

One thing that made me want to bang my head on the wall was, I brought my camera with me - WITHOUT the battery. *ketuk kepala*

Labels: friendship, trip

Happy Birthday dear INTAN!!!

Saye tidak tahu mengarang sajak yang sedap dibaca..so I cilok one from the internet for u! =D

Once a year I get the chance
To wish you birthday cheer.
It pleases me no end to say,
I wish you another great year.
So happy birthday to you Intan,
From the bottom of my heart.
And may your good times multiply,
Till they’re flying off the chart!
By Karl Fuchs

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To dear Najmi,

I ate all the tofu. Why didn't you bring any to Sligo??! Aigoo....ini konspirasi utk menambah berat badan sayakah? (as if tofu can cause weight gain)

I enjoyed every bite..nyummm...Teehee... =)

Labels: friendship, love

Of Life, Friendship and Love

Trip to Germany had lead to many good things.

Of Love
I have finally found the so-much-needed inner peace - I now firmly believe that I am worthy of ~~someone~~ something better. I was so surprised that in the end I did not cry in front of him as I've had expected/feared for so many days. Our meetings had actually calmed the anguish I've had over these few months. I no longer hate myself unnecessarily - used to blame myself for being so immature and indecisive. And neither did I accuse him responsible for keeping me in the dark all these while - for letting me go when I needed him the most. In the end it was for the best. Time for me to look ahead and leave the past as it is. I wish him all the best for the future. Selamat berbahagia dengan teman hatimu! =)

Of Friendship
I had Isyqi for myself (finally!!) for three days. We exchanged stories and tales - about her, him, me, us, our Mr seventy-percents, them and everything under the sun. How I wish time would stop there and then so we could continue chatting. How I wish I could just stay there a bit longer. The countless trips to Aldstadt, the walk in the park, that spontaneous decision to go to Bamberg, all the shared laughter and wishes. Enormous amounts of secrets finally unburdened from our shoulders. I will treasure each and every little moment we spent together. Isyqi, I love you to bits. Thank you for the "doof tasse" and that special something inside - discovered hours after I arrived home. Thank you for spending countless hours with me, if only you'd knew how precious I felt each time you smiled at me. If only you'd knew how hard it was to climb on that train and leave you behind. Saya sayangggggg kamu Isyqi!

Of life
Many things I've discovered - about life generally. All these while I thought I'd never move on and too hard headed to change anyway. Many feared that this trip would drag me back to the endless black hole of misery; or at the very least crushes my pride to pieces. It did none. I realised that I've matured to yet another level and I owe it to everyone around me. Thank you Allah for sending Your love through these people. (To Aimee and Najmi: I WOULD definitely remember all of you in 50 years time - InsyaAllah kalau tak kene Alzheimer - that's how significant you guys are!) I can't believe all the advices that got into my stubborn head. Terima kasih semua!

So in summary I am HAPPY, contented, grateful, BLESSED and so much LOVED by everyone around me but usually I am so self-centered to realize this. Sorry.

Saya saaaayaaannng kamu semuaaaa!!

Labels: friendship, life, love, trip

Too Much Time to Be Wasted (not)

Okay, I've got to be honest. I am actually missing those pregnant bellies! Seriously, how will I cope with the mental wards, surrounded with depressed people and panic buttons(just in case). Can I please push MY panic button so that everyone will come and help? Teehee.. Send me over to those midwives, I don't mind pulling some hairs to get 100 more deliveries.

Intan said I can ask about our status indirectly. I am getting anxious as the text are getting more frequent. What does that mean? But to ask that person directly/indirectly...alamak maluuuuuuuuunye ("ohhhh..i feel stupid talking in bahasa!" *quote* Bwahahaha!!) Should I just keep this anxiety in my poor tummy?

This part of the world is getting colder and colder each day. I think I am going down with flu. Sore throat, aching limbs, high temp? Nooooooo..I want to go to Germany this Thursday - and I shall even if I had to wrapped myself in this thick duvet and board in that flight! Boohoooo =(

Isyqi, I am coming no matter what! And Azraai, you will get those flipflops as promised! (very determined)

Ohh..mahukah sesiapa pergi ke town bersama saya esok? *beating eyelashes*

Current situation:
Status: Sick
Mood: oh try to define it!
Lovelife: drama people dramatize everything. Bleaghh..and I am such a drama queen c(=
Financial status: wishing money will fall down from the sky *eyes rolling*

Labels: attachments, friendship, life, trip

Wrapped up in Love and Blessings

In my room drinking coffee, listening to Etta James' At Last. Beautiful song. Tender and sweet serenading voice. Blissful moment.

Thank you to all the people who wished me 'Happy Birthday'. I sincerely LOVE each and every one of you.

p/s: Lets go out together next Friday after OSCE/MCQ~

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Little that I realized, later that evening I was showered with more UNEXPECTED gift of love. Thanks Intan, Aimee, Najmi, Amira, Belle, Hani, Liyana, Idah, Jali and all the rest of the girls and boys who made d' 23rd as my happiest birthday ever!! *hugs*

Labels: friendship, love

That's It!

I am getting less and less inspired - photography wise. I PURELY hate my recent collections. Everything is so fake and lifeless. I am missing the spirit, the event, the passion in every photo. Each and every one of them reflects what I am feeling inside. Dull and depressed.

I REALLY need that person - that most important person who coaches me through every single photo I used to be proud of. That person who inspires.

Encik, please please please.

Jump over that fence and save me.

Labels: camera, friendship

Should I Give Someone a Call?

For whatever reasons, I was unable to write much over this couple of weeks. It's not that I don't have the time or lacking ideas what to write on. I have loads of things to share but everything is just well drafted - in my head. Inevitably, all those fun stories and sweet memories end up forgotten and deleted from my cerebrum - (along with the formula to calculate velocity of a moving object in a given time which last I heard of was during Mr. Gary's physics class in the year 2004).

Haha..I feel ancient.

Anyway, my trip to Finland was thrilling, full of breath-taking-ly beautiful sceneries that fed my eyes and camera, FUN and super-duper-adventurous; highly recommended for those who wants to put their physical & mental endurance to the test. Linda was the best person to travel with (she's so well prepared!) - plus she has the upperhand for being Finnish (and a local student) in term of communication(very important) and transport fees. Unfortunately I had to pay the full price for almost everything - and I am completely broke until next month...boohoo..

Sunset in Korvala & Linda

Korvala, Finland

Cork Games - Netball - we beat all the other 5 teams - won every single game. End up as champion. Hahahaa. Should I elaborate more about it? Naaahh...I'd better not, because in the end you would say I overemphasized the whole point. Drama..DRAMA....hahahaaaa

Galway Team

The most important thing was that my dear darling Isyqi came over all the way from Germany to join in our team (our own secret weapon by the goalpost *wink*wink) - and Isyqi purposely left her things at my place so that she has a valid reason to come AGAIN! (though that puts me as the second next reason for her next visit!) Nevertheless..........yeeeeeee~~ I'm looking forward to seeing you!! =) =) =)

So in summary;
Attachments: two case reports in three weeks...ahhhhhhhhh......................
Classes: interesting, but somehow failed to tempt me
Financial status: read the above sentence (in bold)
Love-life: dead as usual
Mood: Wicked

"Work spares us from three evils: boredom, vice, and need."

Voltaire

..ohh, seems I don't need to call anyone because I have loads of work to do! =)

Labels: friendship, life, love, trip

Recollection.

Okay, maybe I was a bit 'too emotional' the other day. I can't handle stressors that well, I guess. Maybe I've been spending too much time lying around in my comfort zone...and the thought of giving it up, is just too painful. Bad. I should not feel that way at all knowing that I will not live in this world forever. Yet there I was, crying and breaking apart just because I am AFRAID of losing what I have right now. That is clearly a very 'worldly-perception'.

I wish I could turn back the time. If I'd known then how embarrassed I would be looking at you right now, I would definitely say yes to your proposal. Embarrassment would not be the only reason. To think it over, maybe that is what I need. Allah is answering my prayers... 'Ihdinas-Siraatal-Mustaqiim- (1:5) ....so, why am I running away from it?

Labels: friendship, life

It was obvious that I was intrigued by the truth. Profoundly upset. Tears became my new best friend, my new salvation...the only reminder of yesterday. Tears that keep dragging me deep down in this emotional black hole.

Why? You might ask. Everything remains the same between you and me. Nothing will ever change.

Why? I might ask. Why now when I have give all my love to you. Why now when I am dependent on you for everything that I am. Why now when I had no one to turn to but you. Why?

You said you felt unburdened when you let me know. When you had told me the truth, you felt at ease.

What about me? The truth you told made me felt I've lost the person that I knew all these while. All these years doing almost everything together...made me doubt had you been truthful about everything; all those moments that we've shared are they for real?

Am I being selfish? Coward? Unjust? Unfair?

Tell these eyes that are crying..tell them why.
Tell this heart that is aching...tell it why.

Labels: friendship, life, love

So What?

Oh, I am Still Not over Him - YET. But I am sure I will, someday. =)

Anyway, still struggling with everything in school.

Currently I am so angry with myself for being super LAZY. I wouldn't even walk to the bathroom though my bladder is super FULL.

Hopeless case. I need an energy booster of some sort.

I can feel no emotion towards the upcoming OCSE exam. Owh, but today I learnt about vein guttering and its relations with incompatible arteries. Yeay! Thanks Idah for pushing my lazy brain to think!

Had to answer Sarah's (the intern) bleeps (twice!) and I like it! Honestly, I am SO a professional - someone could hire me as secretary. Teehee..

Quoted from Nora: "I love our little attachment group!"

Labels: attachments, friendship, life, love

Attachments, Gaelic Football and Ger Fla.

Well, I couldn't say much about attachments because I didn't go at all this week, I was TOO LAZY. I miss Dr JT though...

Gaelic football on Wednesday was fun with the capital "F". The other team took the game seriously, with their green jerseys and giant players. Showing off their skills minutes before the game, I was a bit reluctant to join in. Our team was more diverse, with few girls which added to the girl-power effect! During the game I heard Aine was saying to a boy from the other team, " I am a girl! Don't touch me!!" and off she went with the ball undisturbed. Hahaha... being a girl in men-dominated-territory do have some advantages. Honestly, I wasn't really doing anything on the field but because I was the only foreigner in the team, everyone gave too much support and even the opponents didn't do much to take the ball away from my hands. Teehee..I should've run towards the goal with the ball instead of passing it to someone else. Maybe they would consider it as a 'goal' since I don't know how the game works in the first place. Oooohh..bad thoughts.. :p All and all, it was a great experience and I really appreciate all the people who came to give their support. *tears*

Anyway, I was 30 minutes late for the meeting with Ger Fla today and my hands were so cold as I waited outside his office. I was too scared to find out what exactly he thinks of me - well, because of the fact that him being genius and everything. Ayesha found me in such state she pointed that I look like "a cat that is about to give birth". Restless. Well, it turn out fine. He gave evaluation of my performance so far and we talked about the holiday and all. Minutes later, I bid him farewell and wish him happy holiday and stuff. Pfffuuhh..

I was on the phone with Nora and both of us realized that we will not see each other until next year. Awhh..we didn't have a proper farewell. She wants me to send her "Happy Christmas" text in Irish when the time comes..and before I hang up she said something that brought tears to my eyes. "Don't let any boys made you sad, Farah".

Lately almost everyone I knew seems to fall out of love. Hmmm...ohh well.

Happy holiday everyone!

p/s: thanks Amira for all the lovely photos!

Labels: camera, friendship, life, trip

Cos Tonight I Need A Friend

It happened so quick that I was barely breathing...and when it ended tears just rushing down..unstoppable. Gushing down like the heavy rain outside..

I've fallen in love and now I am paying the price; I've lost my best friend in this wild game of hearts.

Wish my heart could be as cold as the weather.

Labels: friendship, life, love

WHATever

Out of boredom, I drew this today - from scratch. After a while, I began to ponder - to the point of which I became profoundly worried. Do I need one so much? Amira, Belle and I once had this girlish conversation about relationships. Belle said that she pities those who already found the love of their lives but cannot be together and live happily ever after - due to some circumstances. Amira pointed out that it's natural to have this urge to get marry, settle down and have the cutest kids ever. Yes, really.

At twenty-two years of age; and having wrinkles creeping up my face, I sometimes worried about myself "am I going to end up as an old maid?".

Well, who knows the answer to that question right?! I might just rest this issue for a while until the time comes when I feel so insecure and ramble about it - again.

p/s: Happy birthday ESTHER!

Labels: friendship, life, love

Farah Need a Kick on Her A**

Wasted my weekends watching Korean dramas. Ughhhhhhh!! Piles of work need to be done, reports need to be wrote, loads of subject need revising, I need another weekend pronto. Heh.

p/s: got myself involved with VSA play again this year singing a choir titled "Ger Fla is My Da!", YEAY!

Labels: friendship, life

Dinner!

Today my lovely house mates treat me for dinner in a fancy Italian restaurant for my belated birthday! OMG, my tummy was super full plus food was great. Menu: SEAFOOD! Had chosen the chef specialties for dinner. Apple tart(pie) and ice cream for dessert plus hot chocolate. Yummy!

Thanks a lot guys, really really appreciate it! *hugs*

Labels: friendship, life, love

RAYA.

Or you'll know it as Eid.

"Eid ul-Fitr or Id-Ul-Fitr (Arabic: عيد الفطر ‘Īdu l-Fiṭr), often abbreviated as simply Eid, is a Muslim holiday that marks the end of Ramadan, the month of fasting. Eid is an Arabic term meaning "festivity" or "celebration" while Fiṭr means "to break the fast" and can also mean "nature" from the word "fitrah" and therefore symbolizes the breaking of the fasting period."

We as Malaysians, also know Eid as the time to eat at other people's house; without feeling any guilt..to the host (nor our own tummy). The hosts of the "open house", as we would call it back home will invite all their friends to gather in their house and THE GUESTs can eat as much as they want. Usually the hosts will prepare really good dishes alongside traditional meal such as the 'rendang', 'nasi impit', 'kuah kacang', etc. I had really great food from 4 houses today! I love going to open houses...especially when the hosts let me play with their Nintendo Wii~! I'd say weeeeeeee~~

Teehee..Thanks to all the people who invited us to their open house today. =)

Note: Foto taken on 1st day of eid, used my phone-cam. [edited]

p/s: happy Birthday dear Faridah. may Allah bless you, always. =)

me+Faridah

Labels: friendship, life

Happy Birthday!

Tomorrow would be Kak Shima's 2?th birthday. Happy birthday!! Heh, may Allah bless you always. Ameen.

p/s: laziness attack....need to study for patho MCQ..ughhh...

Labels: exam, friendship

Today.

Found out about something today - I've been deleted from your longgggg list of friends. Gosh, I was shocked...but somehow I wasn't angry - at all. So, it's official that we're thru as friends I presume. As long as you're happy - neh! Arigatou for everything, you've been so good to me all these while; I think I'll miss you and your wicked smile. Been saying goodbye all these while, I thought I was prepared for it. Never thought I'd still feel sad. Ja ne~!

Anyway, one of my friend was crying her heart out today - broken hearted. For hours I've been thinking about all sorts of things I want to say to make her feel better. Things like, "You deserve better"; " I hope he rot in hell"; "Things will be okay"; "Every cloud has a silver lining". You know, things like that. That sorts of stuff you watch in the drama - all the motivational quotes that'll make the character becoming a stronger person. But this isn't any drama. I couldn't say "CUT!" in the middle of my sentences and redo my lines. I couldn't delete any of the scene and forgot all about it. What I say matters, she's in pain... In the end I said nothing of a great wisdom to her. What I managed to say was, "I hate growing up...". I feel useless.

I need a motivational quote myself. "La-Tahzan".

Labels: friendship

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