b Purely Gibberish: January 2008

Friday, January 25, 2008

It was obvious that I was intrigued by the truth. Profoundly upset. Tears became my new best friend, my new salvation...the only reminder of yesterday. Tears that keep dragging me deep down in this emotional black hole.

Why? You might ask. Everything remains the same between you and me. Nothing will ever change.

Why? I might ask. Why now when I have give all my love to you. Why now when I am dependent on you for everything that I am. Why now when I had no one to turn to but you. Why?

You said you felt unburdened when you let me know. When you had told me the truth, you felt at ease.

What about me? The truth you told made me felt I've lost the person that I knew all these while. All these years doing almost everything together...made me doubt had you been truthful about everything; all those moments that we've shared are they for real?

Am I being selfish? Coward? Unjust? Unfair?

Tell these eyes that are crying..tell them why.
Tell this heart that is aching...tell it why.

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Friday, January 18, 2008

Atonement

It's a must watch movie.

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Wednesday, January 16, 2008

I'll be having my OSCE exam on Friday, 935am. Wish me luck, I need loads of 'em.

Genital warts are NOT something you want to get-ever. Seriously. GROSS. Okay, this is random enough, but when you've seen one, you'll know.

Ohh, the cardio exam with Dr. R was fUntastic. The patient was nice too! Hehehe...and Dr. Sarah is an absolute legend; although she was late for the cardio- exam-bedside -teaching-thingy, she called Amira's phone to apologize! Some people just don't care. She even gave us quick tutorial about catheters, stoma bags and NG tube though she was busy - awhhh.. Infectious disease team are just wonderful!

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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

So What?

Oh, I am Still Not over Him - YET. But I am sure I will, someday. =)

Anyway, still struggling with everything in school.

Currently I am so angry with myself for being super LAZY. I wouldn't even walk to the bathroom though my bladder is super FULL.

Hopeless case. I need an energy booster of some sort.

I can feel no emotion towards the upcoming OCSE exam. Owh, but today I learnt about vein guttering and its relations with incompatible arteries. Yeay! Thanks Idah for pushing my lazy brain to think!

Had to answer Sarah's (the intern) bleeps (twice!) and I like it! Honestly, I am SO a professional - someone could hire me as secretary. Teehee..

Quoted from Nora: "I love our little attachment group!"

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Sunday, January 13, 2008

Come on, Grow UP!

There's this person, immature as he is; I still can't believe that he would be 24 this year. He always hated me since we were in 1st year. Out of whatever reasons he still hates me now.

A year ago he commented my blog saying things that really portray his disgust towards my mere existence. I stay low and was like..."Ok, whatever".

This year he emailed my friend saying how much he hated her. She, on the other hand didn't just sit around and accept it. In the end, he had to go and meet the Dean of Medicine for his offensive email. Serve him right.

Well, seems that he hated everyone.

I hope that he would just stop dwelling dangerously in his own world- seeing everyone as his opponent.

We are not living on a stupid chess board-we are humans with feelings. Act like one.

Peace.

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Sunday, January 06, 2008

It had been a while since-anything. My heart is dying..at least I feel like it. Looking ahead, I'd still look back to nowhere.

I cried in the train to Wien. I've shed too many tears that night, my eyes could cry no more.

Did I do the right thing?

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Saturday, January 05, 2008



Katie Melua
If You Were A Sailboat

If you were a cowboy I would trail you,
If you were a piece of wood I'd nail you to the floor.
If you were a sail boat I would sail you to the shore.

If you were a river I would swim you,
If you were a house I would live in you all my days.
If you're a preacher I'd begin to change my ways.

Sometimes I believe in fate,
But the chances we create,
Always seem to ring more true.
You took a chance on loving me,
I took a chance on loving you.

If I was in jail I know you'd spring me
If I was a telephone you'd ring me all day long
If I was in pain I know you'd sing me soothing songs.

Sometimes I believe in fate,
But the chances we create,
Always seem to ring more true.
You took a chance on loving me,
I took a chance on loving you.

If I was hungry you would feed me
If I was in darkness you would lead me to the light
If I was a book I know you'd read me every night

If you were a cowboy I would trail you,
If you were a piece of wood I'd nail you to the floor.
If you were a sail boat I would sail you to the shore.
If you were a sail boat I would sail you to the shore.

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