b Purely Gibberish: February 2008

Thursday, February 28, 2008

LOOSING SENSE and defence

I know I've been less dramatic lately, maybe due to the fact that I am still not recruited to any movie production after showing my fullblown talent on "LADIES NIGHT". ( I am still loud though- I think it's encoded in my XX chromosomes). Having to live in serenity the past few months, I somehow managed to forget how's it like to feel the evilness in my soul. Alas, this tranquility doesn't last that long. I finally went down last night. The devil that had been banging on my door since a fortnight ago had finally found a secret key and manage to gain entry and poison my poor heart- I went down like a complete moronic slave to my own rage - and felt like a complete fool. I can still hear the devil laughing...

Trying to mend the wound, I've caused another. I am a total mess. I should be left alone to live in a desert. Haihh..

But I want a baby - first. (what???)

Okay, today I found out that my two other bff are PREGNANT!!!!!!!

And I am nowhere near getting myself a husband. Ouff, I sounded desperate but could not care less. I WANT A HUSBAND OF MY OWN!!! Haha.

Point taken everyone? What are you waiting for?? Help me find one SOON!

p/s: please make sure that he is willing to live with me in the desert.

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Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Distance Makes The Heart go Wander?

I guess, yeah.


Monday, February 11, 2008

NERVOUS...NERVOUS.....NERVOUSSSSSSSSSSS. Exams have made me -- socially unreachable.


Friday, February 08, 2008


The other day something had triggered my primitive instinct. I was on the verge of jumping down from Finnegan Suite and let myself to fall freely - but of course; there would be a loud 'THUD' when I landed flat on the ground. I pictured myself doing just that before realizing that the Finnegan Suite is clearly fixed on ground floor. Oh, maybe I was losing my sense of propriety. Why? You might ask. Why in the world would I want to fool myself in front of everybody at the main campus? Well, my answer would be - due to pure tension felt all over my cerebral gyri trying to finish up the MIME assignment.

MIME is just like an itchy spot on your palm, you can scratch as much as you want but you could never get the same sensation as you would when you scratch elsewhere. To put it in other words; I like learning MIME but I could never understand it.

I know those two previous sentences have nothing to do with each other; but - who cares!

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Sunday, February 03, 2008


Okay, maybe I was a bit 'too emotional' the other day. I can't handle stressors that well, I guess. Maybe I've been spending too much time lying around in my comfort zone...and the thought of giving it up, is just too painful. Bad. I should not feel that way at all knowing that I will not live in this world forever. Yet there I was, crying and breaking apart just because I am AFRAID of losing what I have right now. That is clearly a very 'worldly-perception'.

I wish I could turn back the time. If I'd known then how embarrassed I would be looking at you right now, I would definitely say yes to your proposal. Embarrassment would not be the only reason. To think it over, maybe that is what I need. Allah is answering my prayers... 'Ihdinas-Siraatal-Mustaqiim- (1:5) ....so, why am I running away from it?

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