b Purely Gibberish: June 2006

Friday, June 23, 2006

Diary of A Lunatic.

Currently listening to 'Hopelessly Devoted To You' by Olivia Newton-John. I, too can't help feeling hopeless as she sang it with full desperation and admirable emotion. I watched Grease a few days ago and had been forgetting for quite a while how I admire John Travolta. Watching him again in action brings back fond memoris of having a first crush! LoL

Will be going back home tomorrow night but I can't stop myself from thinking that I will miss the flight because I feel I've lost the track of time and today actually is the 24th and I am the only one who think that today is the 23rd. And every now and then I kept losing my flight tickets and miraculously found it in a very same spot which I have had gone through searching a few times. What is wrong with me?? Am I losing my mind or something is bothering me. Living alone for 5 days proved to be very unhealthy for me. I started talking to myself long before I realize it. I am like the cat lady without the cat. Batman without a bat cave and without Robin. spiderman who can't make any spider web. It doesn't make any sense to me. As I probably had lost my mind, sense is no longer the main problem right?


Thursday, June 22, 2006


Just finished talking with my mom on the phone. Guess what? She said she had a dream last night, featuring me, and my other two sisters at home-talking about the world of medics. That seems harmless enough. LoL. But, that is not just it. She alarmingly said I've been hiding something from her. That is very unusual indeed. Usually, what she would say will sounded much like this, "Take good care of yourself dear, remember God always, eat well, don't flirt around, etc. etc. "- as I remind her that I'll be staying here all alone in Galway throughout summer as others had already fly back home for the holiday. Well, I intend to give her a surprise, remember? Well, it turn out that she is the one who gave me a surprise by behaving rather strangely to my latest phonecall. She did not even mention anything about me staying here. All she said is about me going back home. And she believe strongly that is going to happen as she has had that dream last night. How convenient. My mother can predict the future from her dream! Now I know whom to ask about my future husband. LoL

To add up my curiosity, she can even predict the day I'll be arriving home. Slightly off the actual date but just for one day. She "predicted' that I'll be coming back this Monday. Well, I'll be arriving on Sunday, God's will. I am very curious indeed. She said "It's a mother's instinct", I said "It's a conspiracy". Of course I didn't say it out loud but, I am very sure someone had broke his/her vow of deep secrecy when I revealed my secret plan. I know my mother. She couldn't even predict her own mood, let alone this just by using her motherly instinct!! Someone had given her an insight-traitor. Now you have ruined my surprise. Hope you are happy, whoever you are!

Sounded like I am very angry, isn't? Well, I am a bit frustrated and upset. I've got this close to give my parents a HUGE surprise. Just two more days....but it all had been ruined. *sob*sob
I'll try again another year. But this time I shall say nothing to no one! Not even you. LoL

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Cold-so called-Summer.

I don't know either they should be calling this season now, as summer or not. It had been raining all day since I was back from Germany. The only difference between this summer and last winter is that the sun set at 10 pm nowadays. Everything else...I would say pretty much the same. Probably I should measure the quantity of rain now and compare it to rain next winter to get a precise difference. It's not that I have anything else to do right now... What am I saying? Ahhh this is Ireland I am talking about. Even the locals say "You know Ireland, the weather is unpredictable!". Woohoo...so as my mood! =)

Talking about mood, I am totally lost now. Will be going back home in two more days and heck I don't feel excited at all. Why? Something is very wrong here...err.. I need someone to kick me on the head. LoL

Anyway, today I went out to town at noon. Boy, wasn't the weather just playing me off. When I was all set and ready to go I can see the sun is smiling gayly, and so was I. When I opened up the door rain suddenly pouring down out of nowhere. GREAT! So, I went back in and was about to turn on my laptop thinking I probably should go out a little later in the afternoon as the rain seems a little bit heavy than usual-when all of a sudden I can see the rain had stopped. What?

So, I went out on my little journey. I don't know what is wrong with me today-but I think it wasn't such a bad thing either. What am I trying to say is, I don't know why but I think all the people I saw today is very beautiful. Old, young, teenager, male, female...all of them look very pretty. Usually when I go out, all I can see is gloomy faces-but today...aahhh what a wonderful sight. Probably I am in my bestest mood today. And to add up my happy joyous day is that I saw the most alluring guy working in Dunnes Store. It's been a while since I saw anyone that I can consider as 'hot' or 'alluring'...well, minus the time when I was in Germany that is! In Germany, there are loads of 'model like' hunks that sometimes make me think I am walking on a fashion runway. But in Ireland...err...most of the guy is not my type..er.. hihi...except for a few, err like the guy I saw working in Dunnes Store just now. Boy, he surely is hawt.

Bought the bus ticket to Dublin airport and on the way back realised that I had accidently told the girl at the counter a wrong date. I should take the 24th bus, but I told her I'll be taking the bus on 23rd. Silly me. Too lazy to turn back to the bus office. So, probably I'll be going back to town tomorrow. That way I'll have a good excuse to stop by at Dunnes Store! LoL

Note: top pic is me and my dream house...LoL dream on!! It's Neuschweinstein castle in Germany. Beauty isn't. But apparently it was built by 'mad' king of Bavaria, King Ludwig II.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Adventure? Naaahhh!!

Just finished cleaning up my little room. Pheewww what a nuisance! Dusts are everywhere. Books above, under and in between the shelves, pillows under the bed, dirty laundry scattering about. Errr....you get the picture right?( But trust me, it doesn't always look like that) Anyway, I just love the outcome. Clean, neat and inhibitable room. Finally! It had been looking rather similar like a wrecked ship these past few days as I enjoyed myself by doing nothing and just resting in between the comfort of the bed and duvet.

It's too been a while since I have anything proper to eat. But I don't mind. Consider it as a very strict diet. I believe I've had shed a few pounds these few days. Yessarie!! Someone told me that I look rather fat compared to last winter and it had been a smack on the head. It is not proper to tell a girl that she look fat, but whutheheck I admit I did gain some weight. But I am in a mission to shed it off- with full determination!

Ooohh I have another good news! My sister had been accepted into local medical school back home-in University of Sabah, Malaysia! Yeay! That'll add up another doctor-wannabe-and-gonnabe in the family.

I can't believe it!!! I had finished cleaning up the room-that is what I thought. Guess what I found as I write this blog entry? TWO SPIDERS already had their web done between my laptop and the table! I can't believe it!! But it had been taken care of. Let's just say thet I gave them a bit more than "SHOOH"ing. =D Bye bye spiders...

Now my body is itching-not because of alergy to the dust-but for an adventure! I shall go out tomorrow, or later. The rain had just stopped and I think I heard the sun calling me out.

Saturday, June 17, 2006


Results were out yesterday. Hehehee... Bad news, I don't managed to get 1st class honours, I got 2nd class instead. Good news, I don't have to cut my holiday short to repeat any paper. YEAY! What did I do after I've had my result? Sleep of course! It's been a while since I had a very enjoying afternoon nap. It was very rejuvinating indeed. Now I am ready to face any challange in the world. Ermmm...as soon as I finished reading this novel. It's called Misbehaving by Sarah Harvey. Bloody funny~! It's been a while since I felt rather amused reading novel by British writers. Of course there's Kinsella, the funniest of them all. And then there's one called Girl Meets Ape by Chris Manby-hillarious! But probably that's it. Usually, I find other English writers too bloody boring. Maybe I am just too picky and too bloody insensible. Too much 'bloody' now I feel I want to puke. Hahahah! Later folks.

Note: my horoscope reading for today says;

The Bottom Line
There's a strong bond growing between you and an unlikely someone. Nurture it today.

In Detail

Connections can happen in unlikely places -- and with unlikely people. In circumstances beyond your control, you may find yourself talking to someone you never would have considered talking to before. It won't be a romantic link necessarily, but there is a magnetism there that will only grow in the coming weeks. Take this person seriously, and give them a chance to show you what they can do. There is a real value in giving people the benefit of the doubt. Nurture this relationship.

Hahahhaha! "nurture it today?" The only people I had a real conversations with today were Najmi and Aimee. Not really a considerable future spouse isn't it? - Considering they are my girlfriends. Besides, they are leaving to Paris in an hour leaving me all alone in the next 5 days. Whom else I will be talking to? Ooo yes...I should go to some "unlikely places", shouldn't I? Is internet surfing and random chatroom is an "unlikely places"? Ahhh horoscope readings are too vague and confusing. Wonder if anyone actually believe them. Ahahaha....gotta go to some unlikely place now. Later folks!

Friday, June 16, 2006

It is now raining here in Galway. Somehow the weather smelt familiar and very home-like. This is Galway that I know. When I first arrived here, it was the rain who greeted me along with the wind. Vague memories of anticipation, eager to discover this dear Galway. It was this rain I come to love at the end. This rain, drizzling about and dancing along with the wind lightly touching my face, I am now so familiar with. This is my Galway.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

I feel Like a Widow.

I haven't been married of course, mind you. Nevertheless, I can't help feeling like something had gone missing from my life. I feel like crap. If only I can figure out what I've been missing. I guess, I will never figure it out. Perhaps I've been missing someone. If only that someone knew. It'll definitely be the talk across town. haha!

Since I was back from the-happy-ever-after-land of Germany, I feel like my life is heading right down to that dark, pitch black bottomless pit-again. I miss the adventure of travelling! Roaming across the unknown and meeting strangers. Learning from them how is it like to live like an explorer, spending most of your life travelling around the world; sometimes what they told me does sounded like a fairy tale. Or maybe, they will tell you how is it like to spend six hours in a museum, just in the technology section-like the Danish guy we met in the A&O hostel in Munich. He adored the technology subject too much, I guess. But, I miss him dearly-that dear Tobias. Kind and cheerfull Tobias. He didn't mind me teasing him all the time and didn't even complain when we(Aimee and I) woke up at 5 in the morning and making too much noise-he just smile, or even better laughed along. He was like a long lost best friend I've never had. Is that what I've been missing? A dear friend to laugh with me. Why didn't I take a picture of him? I don't really know myself, but if I were to travel back across time, I will definitely ask for his number. I will, seriously!

Isyqi and I, back in Nurnberg. Miss her already!

When we were about to leave Nurnberg going back to Ireland last tuesday, I almost cried. I did cry actually-deep within my heart, I was solemnly crying. I don't want to leave Germany-most of all, I don't want to leave my dear friends. During my last visit to Nurnberg on Christmas, I did cry too-for real. My tears was flowing like November rain as I hug my friend(Isyqi) for the last time- I hardly letting her go. I admit it, I am too sensitive sometimes. And stubborn, and witty, and loud, and chatty and evil...okay, okay that's too much of a confession already. It's not wrong to show your feelings and affections folks, but only to the right person, unattached person preferably- this too is a fact which I learnt during my quest in Germany. It was indeed a very educational trip. Haha!

Najmi and I went to Spanish Arch yesterday. I miss dear Najmi too and yesterday's day out was fun. We were just sitting around watching the flocks of ducks and swans and seagull swimming about, when we noticed this child and her mother feeding up the birds. It was a wonderful sight. Oh, I miss my mother dearly. I just can't wait to see her again. And far back, few yards away from these mother and daughter, there was this sweet old couple feeding up the birds as well. Once again, a wonderful sight-filling up my soul with prayers. I prayed that I'll be like that old sweet couple one day. Someday.

Love-the greatest feeling of them all. Poeple laugh, people cry, people kill each other because of love. Love knew no border, no boundaries of age and time. Anyone can fell in love. Love can grew or fade away. But, the memories of loving someone are the memories we will cherished throughout our lives. I know I will always cherish those fond memories of loving someone-no matter how short the memories were.

Back in those days when I was in school, I always write poems-especially about love. I love poetry. Writing or reading poetry, I enjoyed them both. Nowadays, I rarely read any poem let alone writing one. Oh, how I miss those lovely poems. I love sonnet 18 by Shakespeare. It is too, about love. One that will never fade away, across time and season. Love that grew stronger through time.

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee

To My dear Stranger.

Shall I meet you someday my dear stranger?
and When one day I do
What will I say to you,
can you hear right now
this poor heart of mine
is singing desperately
a love song for you my dear stranger,
can you hear it hum its sad melody
as it longing for you
to fill it with glee..

Well, that was my own unfinished sonnet. I know it sounded crappy, well I didn't say I was a good poet myself :)

Anyway, on our way back from the Spanish arch, I noticed these beautiful flowers blooming beautifully between cracks of a wall. Beauty of God's creations. Subhanallah. Sometimes, I was too preoccupied with havoc and chaos to notice these beautiful creations when all I need to do is just to stop and smell the roses by the road and everything will be okay.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

found this one on some website;

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.

You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.

You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

I still like green, though. Nevertheless, the reasoning is still correct. I write about me, no one else.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Leaving tomorrow.....*sigh*

Going back to Ireland tomorrow. My vacation in Germany and Austria had been a blast so far. It's not just about the place. It's more. It's everything about this place. The people we met along the way, the experience is just...I can't find a word to describe it. It's wonderful.

I am going to miss this place, alot.

The final exam reesult will be out in three more days. I feel like jumping out of the window. Perhaps not. Hehehe.. =D


Sunday, June 11, 2006

I hate You.

Hate is an easy word to say when you are caught up in a situation you don't want to confront with-ever. Today, I had to confront my past-the ugly side of it. I just HATE it. It's like when you've got your exam result in your hand and shockingly you failed the subject, you feel so angry knowing that you are capable of doing better than failing if only you just work a little bit harder instead of going out a night before the exam. I feel like I want to scream my lung out - I HATE YOU!!!!!!! - but entirely, I think I hate myself. I hate it when I had to face my own mistake-or anything resulting from it. I hate it when I can't FOLLOW my OWN rules. It's not that I think I am perfect and not capable of doing anything wrong-it's just hard to accept the fact that I, above all the things in the world, did the thing I did. Now I can't sleep because I can't stop thinking about it. DAMN!

What's done is done and what I can do now is just merely sit back and enjoy the journey of my life ahead. I know. However, I just can't help it that sometimes I wonder if I didn't do the thing I did-would I be happier right now? Would he be happier too? Would us still be friends right now instead of treating each other like a mere stranger? Love and hate are just complicated matters that probably I am just not ready to get tangled in just yet. Perhaps tomorrow.

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Picnic? GREAT!!

Went to Salthill for a little 'family' picnic yesterday. Woohooo!! It was fun! Like duck to water, we enjoyed the cold clear water of salthil beach more than anyone else who were there yesterday. Mandi pantai(beach bathing) Malaysian style! Just look at the photos. I need not to say much =).Walking from Rumah Ketat in Cedarwood road(or something like that), we took the road through some of the loveliest looking neighbourhood in Galway. Most of the time I felt like walking in the O.C. drama set. We arrived at the beach around 5 pm-quite late actually, seeing a lot of other people were already leaving the place, but there were some still coming. Who can resist the temptation of cool breeze and refreshing crystal clear water in this hot blazing sun? I know I couldn't. We ate the sandwich and fried pasta(italian-malaysian cuisine in one plate!),whilst enjoying the great scenery.

At about 6 pm, everybody started changing to their so called 'swimming attire', and wooshhh we went to the water!! It was as cold as ice! Brrrr...They were shivering and I just laugh. If you ask me, I'd say it wasn't that cold...teeheee....because I only get the water up to my thigh, but the others - well, those daredevil were 'swimming' for godness sake! We took some photos and videos. Jali didn't want to get into the water at first, but Aimee and the others had other plan for him. All I can say is, they-and especially Aimee had him soak all thru at the end. Ngehngehngeh....and that just left me, the only one who's still dry and warm. Thanks to those cameras I had to hold or else I'd be pulled into the water too... :P
After cruciating hours in the water, they couldn't take the coldness and shivering anymore...hehehee..so, we went out of the water to change back to dry warm clothes. ouuhhh....what a relief! Aimee and I went to Mocha Bean to get ourselves some coffee and errr.. ice-cream? Teeheee...yup, ice-cream. I thought I mentioned cold and shivering just now? Oh yes, I did. And Aimee had 2 ice-cream in a row! Talk about endurance. Left the beach around 7pm...tired..and sun-burnt.

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Friday, June 02, 2006

Oooppss the photo is no longer here??

Dammit!! Woopss...err...I mean, Ohhh NOoo!! The photo design which is supposed to be the skin for this damm, errr... blog is no longer available on photobucket site. Whatever happens to it for goodness sake??!!! How can things like this can be so unreliable??

Now I'll have to redo everything all over again. Find a good lookin' skin for this blog, grab the HTML code, add and minus few things(which is the most complicated part for myself) and voila, the new blog will be ready! If only the actual doin' it stuff is that easy as writing down the whole process!!! Arrgghhh!!! I should not chew my pillow right now shouldn't I?

Moments later I traced back the photo at it's original site, copied it into my computer (cannot risk another problem like this if it were to happen again), edited the photo, and voila, a not- so-new-skin-but-still-it-is-different-skin, save it, put it in my own photobucket site, edited my HTML code, and republished my blog! YEAY!! And this time I would say, doin' whole process is easier than writing it down. Hehehe...every cloud has a silver lining. Now I truly understand what it means. I feel so embarressed for being so angry just now. Hehehehe...

Thursday, June 01, 2006

evening jog with cik mee mee

Aimee and I felt that we are sick of the rest and relaxing...hehehe, so we decided to jog to Salthill. Well, that was the plan. When we started leaving the house, we did jog for...err..10 seconds? teehee...and walk all the way to Salthill instead. It was a fun walk actually. The weather is just perfect. Clear blue sky and hot blazing sun with the gentle breeze to cool things down a bit. Just perfect.

Well, from Salthill we took the road heading to town, the road which we both never took before and just wanted to try our luck. We were lucky indeed. The road is actually shorter than the usual route we took and the view is way nicer too. We were lucky indeed!We met Najib on his way back to Salthill. He was bored too. Hehhehe...little that we know exams are not that bad after all. At least we will have SOMETHING beneficial to do, like reading books for the exam!
Went back home around 7pm. Watched 'the notebook' and 'X men 3'. Good movies. Enough said, now need to sleep.