b Purely Gibberish: May 2009

Sunday, May 31, 2009

THEN

The last time I had fell for my best friend, I swore never to do it again. Feelings had accidentally developed and they were beyond my control. It was indeed a mistake I fated to make, an ordeal I meant to experience in order to mature. I still shudder whenever I think about the day when we had to bid farewell. It was so hard not to leap in the stupid rebound phase of wanting to run to his embrace and stay there. Tears had been a constant companion I could never live without.

We occasionally say ‘hi’ but not a day went by that I didn’t regret my silly confession. If only I didn’t utter my hearts content, maybe we would still have each other shoulders to cry on.

No worries, I've long accepted the fact that there could be nothing between us. I was too young and silly.


NOW

Inexplicable feelings are soaking my poor heart; poisoning my consciousness and blurring my judgments. Without realizing I am seemingly falling for my best friend again. Different person but the same ‘missing’, ‘wanting’ and ‘longing’ applies. I want to run away.

If only I could run away.

posted by fAraHnaDiaH at 3:50 AM 0 Comments

Monday, May 25, 2009

They said....

"I'm as big as Lorry,
When I walk pass by they could feel the inertia I've created- WHOOSH~!

I'm three times the size I was last year,

and my clothes all seems to shrink down

all my housemates look so undeniably thin...except for me who is obviously out of proportion"

..oh, thanks for all the confidence boosters guys.


The only word you guys haven't used to tie all these together is - FAT!

Yes I'm fat!!!
*sigh*



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oh, yea...happy belated Birthday Cik Aimee!

"live long and prosper"/"Dif-tor heh smusma"*sambil membuat isyarat tangan seperti gambarajah di atas*

Hehehehe...sila la jangan marah ek!! =p

posted by fAraHnaDiaH at 2:06 AM 1 Comments

Tuesday, May 19, 2009


Sebelum menjadi Mayat

Kasihan aku tengok mayat2 tadi. Mereka mayat2 yang tak berkubur. Tapi sudah menjadi nasib mereka. Selamanya mereka kaku menggayakan aksi pelbagai; main tenis, main bola tampar la, duk termenung pn ade, yang macam hantu penanggal pun ade...(kalau tak percaya tanye aku)

Sudahlah begitu, setiap satunya disiat2, dikerat2 dan dibahagi2 sesuka hati. Kesian mayat2 itu. Oh!

Tapi kalau letak mayat ayam ade orang nk datang tgk ke?

Part yang paling aku kagum section arteries tu...

Tapi encik penjual tiket, apesal mahal sungguh harga tiketnye???

----luahan perasaan penulis setelah pulang dari pameran mayat di dublin------

Hmm..terpegang pulak part 'love handle'(menurut kate rafiq/nasrul) sendiri. Ahh..teringat mayat makcik potong tiga yang lemak dibawah kulitnya secara general setebal 1 inci setengah, dan lemak di 'love handle'nya pula setebal tiga inci.

*Gulp!*

Oh, esok kene pegi jogging lagi ni.

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Nota kaki: Kalau rancangan Jalan-jalan Cari Makan dah glamer mase kecik2 dlu mesti cita2 aku nk jadik Maria Tengku Sabri.

posted by fAraHnaDiaH at 10:29 PM 0 Comments

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Semalam aku mimpikan kau lagi.

Entah kenape akhir-akhir ni asyik mimpi pasal kau. Ade skali mimpi jumpe mak ayah kau. Pastu mimpi jumpe kau lagi. Pastu aku mimpi jumpe lelaki idaman malaya.

Yang penting aku dah rimas tak tahan dengan mimpi yang berulang2 ni. Bukan aku tak pernah cube berbaik. Aku aje ke yang pernah lukakan hati kau? Ahh..malas aku nak tuding jari.

Aku sedih.

Kalau nak ikutkan ego aku, jangan harap aku nak senyum pun kat kau. Kalau ikut perangai aku yang lama dah lama kau kene tengking. Aku teriak depan muka kau sampai tersembur air liur. Tapi kenapa nak buat camtu? Kite dah besar bukan budak sekolah menengah. Kalau nk ikutkan kau dah bleh buat 2-3 orang anak dah umo2 camni. Ape la yang ko nk emosi sangat?

Mungkin aku aje yang rase camni, tapi aku rindu nak berborak dengan kau.

Aku rase aku ni dah makin tua. Cepat terasa hati. Aku harap kau dah maafkan aku sebenarnye...aku taknak mati dan meninggalkan kebencian kat dunia ni.

Mungkin aku tak layak rase macam ni tapi aku sayang kau kawan.

posted by fAraHnaDiaH at 10:48 PM 1 Comments

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Mari Berangan

Die suke kaler hijau - saye pun!
Dier suke beli kasut sukan - saye pun suke beli kasut(fullstop)
Dier suke travel - saye pun!
Die suke army prints - saye pun!
Dier suke jam besa - saye pun!

Dier sangat tinggi - saye suke!
Dier pandai berlakon/bercerita/menyanyi/menari - saye suke tgk!

Dier suke gurau2 - saye pun!
Dier suke budak2 - saye pun!
Dier tido dgn mata separuh terbuke - heheheehhe...saye pun :p

dier suke makan - saye jugeee!

Saye suke saye suke!

tapi.....dier kan kat korea nuuu.
Dier tak kenal pun sape saye...

(T_T)

takpe, mari saye teruskan berangan..

posted by fAraHnaDiaH at 11:13 PM 4 Comments