b Purely Gibberish: November 2006

Wednesday, November 29, 2006




You went missing in a middle of a conversation.


Create an account just to create some havoc?

I am speechless.

Allah knows best.

Good luck for exam everyone.

I am tired.

I miss you too.

I want some adventure-not in these kind of weather I guess.

Please-no rain just for one day please!

Allah is Most Knowing.

I miss you, only if you know.

I want my own Mamoru-wish I can tell you that.





Monday, November 27, 2006

Heh. I miss You.

Lately you're always featured in my dreams. Some nights in those dreams, we are happy together, and I'll woke up smiling. Some night, things aren't working out between us and you said you hate me, and I'll woke up crying. Last night I 've dreamt of you, yet again. We are friends again and how I am glad-indeed I am. I hug you tight and cry. It was a happy dream, but still I woke up with tears because it didn't happen.. We are still drifted apart. Sad.

Yes, I was hurt-deeply wounded the day you said those words. Now I realize, I deserved it. I should appreciate our friendship more but I didn't.

Never thought I'd miss you this much, friend. Maybe because we've spent lots of time together, and I miss those moments. Maybe because you are my better half without me realizing. You kick some sense in me each time I wandered away from my path. I miss you and I miss your smile.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Smile...smile.....smile and let go.

I need to reformat my laptop. Too many viruses and I am sick of the anti-virus popup that gave me this warning; *really annoying alam to begin with* "caution, a virus has been found"-when i am in the middle of something important like writing my blog.

Sunday, November 19, 2006


For a few weeks I've been living in grief and sadness-I don't know what to do anymore. Alas, one comment on one of my blog entry and the same text being sent to my phone caused tears that I've kept within to burst out- finally. For whatever reason, this hatred was just unbearable. Probably because all of these due to some misunderstanding and shouldn't have happened in the first place. I could no longer withhold the sadness and heartache. I don't know how long I've cried. I felt hopeless. With gentleness, one of my friend hug me and recite; Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope. He gets reward for that (good) which he has earned, and he is punished for that (evil) which he has earned. "our Lord! Punish us not if we forget or fall into error, our Lord! Lay not on us a burden like that which You did lay on those before us; our Lord! Put not on us a burden greater than what we have strength to bear. Pardon us and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. You are our Maula (Patron, Supporter and Protector) and give us victory over the disbelieving people." (al-Baqarah 2:286). Masya-Allah a du'a I've been reading everyday, yet I've never realize the depth of it's meaning. How my heart relieved from whatever sadness I was having. Alhamdulillah. I could never say thank you enough my Lord, for it was mercy from You, sending me friends that remind me of You at this time of grief. Sent me friends that give me love when all that I can feel is hatred. It's true I've been forgetting You, and yet you've never forget me ya Allah. How I am ashamed for what I've done-may you grant me forgiveness- Ya Allah, The Most Forgiving.

Kind words and forgiving of faults are better than Sadaqah (charity) followed by injury. And Allah is Rich (free of all needs) and He is Most Forbearing. (al-Baqarah 2:263)

Wednesday, November 08, 2006


Went to Nottingham last weekend for an intervarsity netball tournament. We made it as far as quarter finals before the team from Warwick University beat us- many thanks to the unjustified referee. Warwick end up as the 1st runner up-so, overall it wasn't too bad for our team that only practiced twice, each session is less than an hour. I'd say it was a miracle.

It was a good experience and I am glad that I was part of it. I hope the pictures will tell you the rest of the adventure.

p/s: I love Nottingham City-and the GAP model in the advertisment beside the bus-stop.