b Purely Gibberish: December 2008

Friday, December 26, 2008

Paris et al

Yes, Paris was lourvely. Weather was splendid when we were there. Though some parts are bit dodgy(e.g. when we went for dinner in Barbes Rochechouart kan ramai orang pelik2); I would consider going there again. Maybe with someone special??

Anyway, I'm tired of having people asking why didn't we go to Disneyworld. Oh, why should we? It's a freedom of choice.

Went to Lourve to see Mona Lisa. Her presence and mysterious smile didn't really impress me as I thought it would. Maybe I would appreciate her more if - there aren't any barrier, distance and all those crowd; oh also minus the fact that we hadn't had anything to eat for breakfast (low blood glucose = low concentration).

People are so expressive of their sexuality and emotions in Paris. There were alot of straight couples berciuman di sana sini. One night, I saw two men kissing passionately underneath Arc de Triumph - and not an inch away from me. I almost barf then and there. (What a waste- dah la pompuan susah nk carik lelaki skang ni). Teehee..and we kept calling Nasrul and Rafiq a gay couple...and I have a LOT of photos to prove that they were behaving like one. Jangan marah ek guys, gurau2 teman tapi mesra namenye tu. Hahahaaa..

Ohh, speaking of emotions I think that "someone-in -the -other -side -of -the- world" should just

....grow up grow up grow up grow up grow up!!!!!!!

sekian, terima kasih.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


Well I guess it would be nice
If I could touch your body
I know not everybody
Has got a body like you
But I’ve got to think twice
Before I give my heart away
And I know all the games you play
Because I play them too
but I
Need some time off from that emotion
Time to pick my heart up off the floor
And when that love comes down
Without devotion
Well it takes a strong girl baby
But I’m showing you the door
I gotta have faith(faith)(3x)
gotta have faith
I know you’re asking me to stay
You say please don’t go away
You say I’m giving you the blues
You mean every word you say
I can’t help but think of yesterday
When another who tied me down to loverboy rules-
Before this river
Becomes an ocean
Before you throw my heart back on the floor
Oh I reconsider
My foolish notion
Well I need someone to hold me
But I’ll wait for something more
I gotta have faith(faith)(3x)
gotta have a little more faith in myself*

..hmm...paling sesuai rasenye.


two more days and I'm done with the away attachments. I didn't realize how much I'll be missing SBH until now...alaaaaa..who else would make me laugh if it isn't Mr M and his mood swings.

I'd definitely miss the ~1hr car ride every morning to Ballinasloe.

Good things don't last....but better things will follow.

Paris, here I come!


Lately I've been feeling this weird NEED to hug someone - buff preferably.

Aaaaaa...I really really need a hug. maybe it's time I should come knocking on someone's door. Ngehhhhhh =p

Friday, December 12, 2008

Sometimes people talk metaphorically and I'm just downright confused. Sad? Happy? Angry? Mad? Mental? Just say it to my face and don't use all those useless jargons/indirect hatred comments/unreadable facial expressions! Grr...


Dr M, Dr. Em and Nurse C in long stay ward, I love you all!! Nora was right, so far I am lovin' the away attachments. Weeeee~~


Esther is going home for Christmas. I wish I could sneak into her luggage and fly home too - perhaps I could, provided that I am able to stay alive with minimal oxygen and extremely minimal temperature! Ok, stop merapik Farah.


tired. Full. Later folks.

Sunday, December 07, 2008


"bottle up you smile and pour it in a cup,
I'll be on my way once I've sobered up"
Nevermind Me- Maria Mena

If you were to ask me now about my dream and what I want in life, I would have to say I have not a single clue.. Why am I here and what am I doing? I don't know.

I've met so many people through my winding journey of soul searching - some of them tried hard to keep me on the right path but many more had stirred me to places I don't even want to remember. Now I am lost. I'm lost and I don't know myself anymore.

Save me..anyone?

p/s: maybe you were right when you said I was too gullible *sigh*


Ni hape sedih2 mase raye ni..isk2..macam vicious cycle raya aidilfitri nk berulang je nieh. Haihhhh takleh jadi, kne positif - Caiiyukk Farah!!!!! Haihhh.. Ohh bercakap tentang raye.. maaf la rumah st Endas ponteng takbir raye thn ni. Nk buat camne, ahli rumah ni tak sihat, esok nk kne away pulak. Eksekius la ekk =p


Terasenye diri dah tua; takleh nk buat vid golek2 kat bukit lagi...
serius, rindu gle zaman 1st year dlu.

kawan-kawan...jom pegi trip ramai2!


Friday, December 05, 2008


kakak yang tabah mencari rezeki (mmg tiada kaitan dengan cerita di bawah)

Tadi tetibe rase elated. Jantung berdebar-debar. Jiwa bergoncang. Ewahhhhh~ Feels like something HUGE is going to happen soon..feels like all my senses are waking up from slumber. Euphoria mmg mengasyikkan. Bikin hatiku gila bayang (apekah??). Hmmm..entah entah somebody is going to.........*mula la sesi berangan yang bertahan selama sejam*


.....lepas tu baru ingat mase siang tadi sudah OD caffeine. Ceh. Buat penat je debar-debar. Heh. Perlu ke tulis entry semata-mata sebab ini?


Tuesday, December 02, 2008

I know I've once told someone - "I hate it when people added feedjit to their blogs". No privacy for the reader...(konon la, as if 'mendalah' tu bgtau nama orang2 yang datang menyinggah).

Ohh..tetibe hari ni rase curious...so, I'm taking back my words.

'Mendalah' tu is now present here.



Monday, December 01, 2008

Don't Mess With My Broken Heart

"I'm Stupid I'm Stupid...I'm Stupid"

Imagine having this thoughts in your head constantly for hours, days, weeks, months...no wonder the patient was so self-destructive. Hope you'll get better soon Mr. KR!


And as for me, I should be able to figure it out by now. I apt to accept the unspoken verdict - the plausible truth.

There had been nothing but silence on the other side ever since I came back from Germany and I wonder what went wrong. Thank you for making me feel miserable for days and leave me hanging here like an idiot. THANK YOU! This is all I need as a wake up call. A bloody nightmare!

My veins are constipated with all your foul and follies; I've never felt so emaciated throughout my life!


Okay, I should be getting back to writing the psych history.