Of Life, Friendship and Love
Trip to Germany had lead to many good things.
Of Love
I have finally found the so-much-needed inner peace - I now firmly believe that I am worthy ofsomeone something better. I was so surprised that in the end I did not cry in front of him as I've had expected/feared for so many days. Our meetings had actually calmed the anguish I've had over these few months. I no longer hate myself unnecessarily - used to blame myself for being so immature and indecisive. And neither did I accuse him responsible for keeping me in the dark all these while - for letting me go when I needed him the most. In the end it was for the best. Time for me to look ahead and leave the past as it is. I wish him all the best for the future. Selamat berbahagia dengan teman hatimu! =)
Of Friendship
I had Isyqi for myself (finally!!) for three days. We exchanged stories and tales - about her, him, me, us, our Mr seventy-percents, them and everything under the sun. How I wish time would stop there and then so we could continue chatting. How I wish I could just stay there a bit longer. The countless trips to Aldstadt, the walk in the park, that spontaneous decision to go to Bamberg, all the shared laughter and wishes. Enormous amounts of secrets finally unburdened from our shoulders. I will treasure each and every little moment we spent together. Isyqi, I love you to bits. Thank you for the "doof tasse" and that special something inside - discovered hours after I arrived home. Thank you for spending countless hours with me, if only you'd knew how precious I felt each time you smiled at me. If only you'd knew how hard it was to climb on that train and leave you behind. Saya sayangggggg kamu Isyqi!
Of life
Many things I've discovered - about life generally. All these while I thought I'd never move on and too hard headed to change anyway. Many feared that this trip would drag me back to the endless black hole of misery; or at the very least crushes my pride to pieces. It did none. I realised that I've matured to yet another level and I owe it to everyone around me. Thank you Allah for sending Your love through these people. (To Aimee and Najmi: I WOULD definitely remember all of you in 50 years time - InsyaAllah kalau tak kene Alzheimer - that's how significant you guys are!) I can't believe all the advices that got into my stubborn head. Terima kasih semua!
So in summary I am HAPPY, contented, grateful, BLESSED and so much LOVED by everyone around me but usually I am so self-centered to realize this. Sorry.
Saya saaaayaaannng kamu semuaaaa!!
Trip to Germany had lead to many good things.
Of LoveI have finally found the so-much-needed inner peace - I now firmly believe that I am worthy of
Of FriendshipI had Isyqi for myself (finally!!) for three days. We exchanged stories and tales - about her, him, me, us, our Mr seventy-percents, them and everything under the sun. How I wish time would stop there and then so we could continue chatting. How I wish I could just stay there a bit longer. The countless trips to Aldstadt, the walk in the park, that spontaneous decision to go to Bamberg, all the shared laughter and wishes. Enormous amounts of secrets finally unburdened from our shoulders. I will treasure each and every little moment we spent together. Isyqi, I love you to bits. Thank you for the "doof tasse" and that special something inside - discovered hours after I arrived home. Thank you for spending countless hours with me, if only you'd knew how precious I felt each time you smiled at me. If only you'd knew how hard it was to climb on that train and leave you behind. Saya sayangggggg kamu Isyqi!
Of lifeMany things I've discovered - about life generally. All these while I thought I'd never move on and too hard headed to change anyway. Many feared that this trip would drag me back to the endless black hole of misery; or at the very least crushes my pride to pieces. It did none. I realised that I've matured to yet another level and I owe it to everyone around me. Thank you Allah for sending Your love through these people. (To Aimee and Najmi: I WOULD definitely remember all of you in 50 years time - InsyaAllah kalau tak kene Alzheimer - that's how significant you guys are!) I can't believe all the advices that got into my stubborn head. Terima kasih semua!
So in summary I am HAPPY, contented, grateful, BLESSED and so much LOVED by everyone around me but usually I am so self-centered to realize this. Sorry.
Saya saaaayaaannng kamu semuaaaa!!
Labels: friendship, life, love, trip
posted by fAraHnaDiaH at
1:16 PM
1 Comments:
saya sayang kamu juga..
hari tuh tak nangis sebab kamu nak datang lagi kan?
u did promise me rite?
hahaha
p/s:bout my n3.tuh lah.me too.but at the end, i did spend about two hours talking to him. :P let the 'thing' goes with the flow just like K said rite? hurrmmm :)
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